HELP! I'M IN LOVE WITH A PLAYER

I don’t know if what I feel is right but the truth is that, it’s just the way I feel. I have tried getting my mind off the issue but each time I do, his smiling face comes popping up again, like those annoying pop-ups you’d have while working on the internet. The only difference being that his smile is not at all annoying.

Fred is a chronic womanizer, at least that’s the word on every one’s lips in the office,

but his countenance spells something else. He looks every bit a very responsible man, quiet and with a tint of shyness. He is not over the top handsome but he can be said to be dashing with his trademark smile. He has an account with us and his business forces him to make regular visits to the bank which makes him almost like family to the bank, if not for his account, at least for his ‘now’ crashed relationship with Bunmi, a colleague of mine.

‘How may I help you sir?’ I asked him just taking my eyes off the system for the first time.

‘I need to check my balance and emm… okay just help me with my balance first,’ he said almost musically.

That was officially the first words we exchanged and Fred gradually made it a habit to making me his ‘check my account balance officer’.

Fred asked me to give him to your number, but I refused. Angela said albeit casually.

‘Who’s Fred?’  I asked

‘Ah! Ng, how can you say you don’t know Fred?’

‘Is he our staff?’ I asked

With a funny expression on her face, Angela explained that to me that Fred was the guy that just left my desk.

‘Oh! Him,’ I said almost in a squeal.

‘uhm,’ Angela smiled . ‘Anyway, I told him to ask you, himself, I’m not ready to be anybody’s link and besides I don’t want Bunmi to break my head.’

Fast forward through months and here I am fighting the battle of my heart with the thoughts of Fred.

He seems so different from the so many tales told about him, so nice, gentle, quiet and like I earlier said almost shy.

‘Why did you break up with Bunmi?’ I asked out of the blues as we sat to dinner as had become the custom every Friday night.

‘Nothing, we just grew apart.’

That answer was far from being convincing. ‘You grew apart?’ I asked like I had developed hearing problems.

‘Hmm,’ he answered with his mouth full.

‘Okay’ I said almost in soliloquy as I picked on the food in my plate.

‘So that means that one of these days both of us will grow apart and we’ll be history, ehn?’ Fred asked me, dropping his spoon on the edge of the plate.

I looked straight in his eyes and I saw from his gaze he was positive he had read my thoughts perfectly. Of course he had, who wouldn't think same under such circumstances.

‘Stop,’ I moaned as he bit my lips lightly, gently driving me to the wall, his hands ravaging the curves called my breasts. My head was spinning as some incredible sensations swept through my body, temporarily freezing the blood in my veins. I could feel his bulge threatening to burst loose from his trousers and the thought of it caused an incredible racing of my heart, pushing me to the limits of excitement.

‘Stop,’ I pleaded as he peeled off my clothes, leaving the thin straps of my brassiere hugging tightly to the fabric called my skin. His face was buried in my cleavage as his teeth sought to gently claw out my boobs.

I know I would be accused of jumping from the dinner table straight to the bed room but if I’m to give an accurate account of events as I remember it, this is exactly how it comes, cause till this minute I still can’t remember how Fred finally did his explanations, drove me home in his car and was presently threatening to drive me insane with pleasure.

Then the words re-appeared on the walls of my mind, haunting me with its message, ‘my boyfriend is an unrepentant womanizer,’ I had heard Bunmi complain to another colleague. Knowing that Fred was that boyfriend made me feel the creeps quite a number of times but my heart was just too deaf to listen.

I have finally succeeded in getting Fred from off me but that is after two rapturous sessions of love making...did I just hear you say aah! Funny enough I don’t feel bad, instead I feel really good…correct expression would be, I feel sweet all over but I have this eerie feeling around me like something bad is about to happen.

People I really do need help, should I stop this right now with all this talk about Fred being a womanizer, after all, like someone aptly put it ‘ the leopard never changes its spot,’ Or should I continue and keep believing and hoping for the best of love?

People of LOVE-LAND  like I say every time, I don’t hold all the answers to love, so please write in and tell Ng what to do, because it may seem like she’s having a ball right now, we all know it might just turn out to be a TIME BOMB. I am expecting your wise words of counsel so we can help another of our own, who’s smitten with the arrow.